LIVE THE LIFE YOU WANT

Dear people of the internet. As I'm writing this I just got another mention that I should close my browser so that AVG can do some updates. And you can guess, I ignored it just like we all do. Eventually I'll have to do the updates, but right now it doesn't really matter. To get straight to the point of this post, life's short. I'm eighteen years old and I never really lived, sure I had this internet life for a couple of years, but that's just not it. Last year is the year I started living, so I took a break from the internet to live my life, especially my love life.

Even though you think you're better of alone, you need love in your life. So last year I searched for a guy, I focused on finding someone at school, at a party, ... And it worked, I found someone I liked, I pursued him and I found out he's a dick that never really liked me. He also spread some dirty rumors about me, even though he denies it when I asked about it. So that's 8 months of my life that I can throw away. I also had my first relationship ever, it only lasted 38 days, but hey, no regrets at all! I think I really needed to experience this feeling that I longed for. And now that I did I know what I want love/relationship wise. 

Basically I found myself again after a long time of being lost. Last week I realised how much I missed Gossip Girl. This show was basically my life when it aired in Belgium. It was my biggest inspiration, I had a lot of books about fashion and how to dress, I went to school everyday thinking I was Blair Waldorf. I lived the life I wanted in my dreams and that's what I lost this year due to choosing love. After realising this I made a decision; I want my life back!

So I bought ELLE yesterday, right now I'm redecorating my room, I actually made a YouTube video a couple of days ago and right now I'm listening to Monkey Business from the Black Eyed Peas. It feels weird to be doing these things again, but at the same time it's a relief to be doing these things again. I'm living the life I wanted and I made a promise to myself to go with the flow. Love will find me because I'm me, not because I'm desperately looking for it. 

Live the life you want, live with no regrets!

xoxo

Cassandra